Friday, March 22, 2013

Sabbatical Time-Depression Sinks In

If you have been following my blog you have been aware of my depressive cycle. It hasn't gotten any better so I've checked into the hospital for help. This isn't an uncommon occurrence for me. I've been hospitalized before. Many times. Well, I can count on nearly two hands how many times.

This is going to be a long hospital stay as I'm getting a new treatment. ECT treatments. Basically, I'm being given induced seizures for less than a minute to try and "reset" my brain. The doctors say I need to get back to "factory settings". Makes me feel like a computer.

But, if you think about it, all our brains are like computers. Very complex computers.

The prognosis is good. The popular belief (and facts have shown) that this is the best treatment for people like me who have stubborn long-term depressive episodes that haven't responded to medications.

I'll attempt to keep you posted on my results. I was concerned about memory loss and losing my ability to write, but so far so good. I had my first treatment this morning and overall it was a good experience. The doctors said I had the perfect seizure and they have high expectations of subsequent good results.

My hope is to get better, stable, and get back to doing what I do best. Write.

If anyone has comments or questions, I will do my best to respond.

-- Vicki


  1. Oh, Vicki. I'm so sorry that you've had to check into the hospital, but I'm very glad that you are getting the right treatment for you.

    Please keep us updated as you can.
    I'll be thinking about you. --Lisa

  2. I'm sending over a lot of great thoughts for you. I hope all turns out well even faster than you're anticipating.

  3. Lots of love! God is good, may He bless you! You seem to have a good outlook, take care!

  4. Vicki! I found your blog through SITS and I must thank you for being so honest and open about your journey! I have really enjoyed perusing your blog and will be sure to check back on your journey! May God bless and keep you!

  5. Thank you for your candor. The more we talk about depression and bipolar disorder, and the ways to treat it, the better our society will become at dealing with it. Best wishes to you!


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